24 November 2011

And Thanksgiving...

Reading everyone's Facebook statuses about being grateful for things always makes me reflect on my own life. I think that I do a pretty good job of appreciating what I have in my life on a day-to-day basis, but I guess this time of year is about really taking stock of it all. The only difficulty for me is that it's hard to know where it ends - or rather that it feels unending - and so maybe THAT is what I'm grateful for. Are there things on my "want" list? Absolutely. Are there things in my life that I have wanted that I never got? Sure. But for some reason, things always seem to work out.

I look at some of my friends who have had real struggles in their lives. I look at strangers from the internet, magazines, news shows on TV... It all makes me feel so lucky and so grateful. Some of what I have is because of my own hard work, but a lot of it is pure chance of what I was born into, opportunities provided to me, etc. I was born into an awesome family, who, despite going through divorce when I was little, have remained so consistently there for me. They somehow knew just the right balance of helping me out and not helping me out so much that I never learned how to do it on my own. They gave me solid morals and values to live from, but taught me that questioning things was good and that it's important to have my own opinions. Even though my dad and I disagree on many many political topics, he never thinks I'm stupid or wrong for my opinions (ok, sometimes he might think I'm wrong, but not stupid...). My family put just the right amount of pressure on me, too - in my work, I see people whose parents push too hard, and they crack. And I see people whose parents didn't push enough, and they slacked off and felt unloved. But mine was just right to make me feel that they valued my potential in life and wanted me to achieve it, but that my happiness was more important than achievement in general.

And then I traveled. I moved to Nashville, to Austin, to Eugene, to Los Angeles... In each of those cities, I made great friends, which is not a simple feat. But somehow it worked out. I still wonder how I became so lucky. I'm about to go to Thanksgiving at a friend's house since I live too far away to be with family - and I realized that since 2004, I have always had somewhere to go to celebrate this holiday even without family. That I still talk to my best friend from high school on a regular basis, my best friends from college, and from grad school...even though I don't live near any of them... Again, I am so grateful.

Of course, there is my work success, which sometimes just surprises me because I just feel like an average person. My parents will, of course, roll their eyes at that, thinking that I am superior to most, but let's be serious - they're my parents. It's in their genes to say that. But I have achieved a lot, and I feel so lucky to have the opportunities that I have for my work. Again - even when things aren't going my way, something always seems to come through. I know many people who have been out of work - some for short periods of time and some for longer. I know they are smart and hard workers and that their difficulty finding work is not indicative of their worth. So the fact that I have no worries about having a job in the near future is something I feel truly grateful for.

If you're reading this, chances are good that I know you (since this isn't the most frequented blog on the internet) - and chances are also good that you are someone I am very thankful to have in my life. Heck, even if you're reading this and I don't know you, I'm still thankful for you - that for some reason, you took interest in what I have to say. I know there are bad things in the world. There are things that haven't worked out. But to be able to sit here in my beautiful apartment and reflect on my life is something I appreciate so much.

Ads

So I was reading an article about a cherpumple (the cherry pie, apple pie, pumpkin pie baked into a 3 layer cake) online today, and one commenter said that he thinks it's funny that this article is surrounded by diet ads. So I look at the ads, and it turns out that the ads are targeted to the browser/search history of the computer, as my ads are for things like fashion, the LA Phil, and a pop culture website. So this guy thinks the diet ads are targeting the pie-cake article, but they're actually just targeting him. Which sort of makes me feel bad for him for outing himself as a diet connoisseur (or at least someone who has searched enough diets or diet products to get ads about it).

22 October 2011

A Follow-up

I read this letter yesterday and pretty much agree with it. I would add to the part where he talks about the formation of unions back in the day to demand better treatment and add that corporations have basically figured out a work-around. I actually think that some unions have gotten out of hand and are making more demands than their workers deserve, but the basic idea of unions is important - because laborers have been mistreated in the past. But in the end companies have just worked around the issue by taking their workforce abroad, where they don't have to pay as much and instead can go back to the days of inadequate compensation for labor - just in another country.

I went to Occupy LA on Thursday night. A friend wanted to spend his birthday down there checking it out and asked friends to join. When I showed up, my friend said I looked overdressed (I had come straight from work). I said that perhaps they needed some better dressed people around so that they weren't just viewed as lazy hippies... So we got a tour of their little community of tents. Saw their general assembly meeting with the human microphone (echoing each statement the speaker makes instead of using actual amplification), the food tent, medical tent, library tent, meditation tent, information tent, etc. There are two shower tents and apparently a media tent where they have a generator so that people can use computers and charge phones. It's pretty interesting. I'm still iffy about some of it because the idea is that they will "occupy" until their demands are met, but there are no demands yet. They say they're still working on the specific demands, but they work through consensus, and the movement is really diverse, so that seems tough. I feel like they need to think basic to make it something that we can all agree on. Like the guy in the letter says - being a liberal may mean you want even more, but you can at least agree on the basics. For being so diverse, though, the whole place felt really peaceful and full of community and support. I'm still in favor of the movement because I'm in favor of anything that makes us talk and think. I just hope that people will really respond with true contemplation instead of jumping to conclusions based on perceptions of who the protesters are and skepticism because of a lack of specific goals.

16 October 2011

Occupy Politics

Warning about the political nature of this post. It is also very long and rambly. Very rambly. Please read with an open mind and try to avoid preconceived notions about the Occupy Wall Street movement...

I first heard about Occupy Wall Street maybe a month ago. I had no idea what it was about. It was portrayed to me by media outlets as a group of hippies and/or artists who were angry about corporate greed. The timing of the movement coincided with Obama's proposal to get rid of the Bush tax cuts, which seemed to connect the movement with the "f- you, rich people" idea. I wasn't sure what I thought. I mean, I've always been in favor of repealing the Bush tax cuts, and I am definitely in favor of getting rid of loopholes that allow people to pay a smaller percentage of their pay (Warren Buffett's op-ed piece really illustrates why I feel this way). But I couldn't really figure out what the Occupy Wall Street (OWS) thing was all about. What did they want? No one really knew. And being the skeptic that I am, I wasn't totally buying it. I mean, look at the people protesting - the people in power aren't going to take them seriously because they will just dismiss them as lazy hippies looking for handouts. And that's pretty much what's been happening in conservative circles.

But I couldn't just dismiss the idea completely because I think it stems from a good place. It seemed to be misconstrued, though, and part of that was based in the lack of specific demands. Anyone can write whatever they want on a sign and stand in protest, and some of those signs aren't so good. The counter-movement of the 99%ers (call themselves the 53%) illustrates the lack of understanding of what the OWS movement really is. They appear to view the protesters as unemployed people who don't pay taxes and are asking for everyone else to support them. (The 53% number comes from the percentage of Americans who pay income tax. Since they place themselves opposite the 99% movement, it appears that they view the others as the 47% who don't pay income tax...which is just simply not true. The people who don't pay income tax are often elderly and disabled people on social security and poverty-stricken individuals who don't make enough to pay taxes. These are not the majority of those protesting across the country.) Signs of the OWS protesters that make comments about wanting debt forgiveness are hurting the movement because it's an easy target to counter. You got yourself into debt, and now you're asking for someone else to get you out of it. That's easy to dismiss. So the 53%ers talk about how they live within their means and don't ask for handouts, so they're somehow better. This post on Forbes.com illustrates how some of the 53%ers really could benefit from a better understanding of the 99% movement, as their interests are actually more in line than they realize.

I guess I see it as this. Back in the day, there was an "American dream." If you were smart enough and worked hard enough, you would prosper. But that's just not really true anymore. Companies hire in at the top level from other top levels. People get jobs via networking and nepotism. You can have an awesome idea, but it won't get you anywhere because big corporations are too big to compete against - and they probably won't listen to you about your idea unless you have a connection that lets your idea be heard. Sure, there are exceptions to this, but it's rare. You can't just start a small business on the street corner anymore and ensure that it can grow because a big chain store will probably come in and offer what you can't (cheaper prices because of mass production/distribution and probably outsourced manufacturing). You can't be sure that your investments will be worth anything in the future either, so good luck during retirement. We're turning into a caste system - with a few exceptions, you will remain in whatever socioeconomic situation you were born into. That may seem fine for those of us born into the middle and upper classes. But that's not what our country is supposedly about. We're supposed to recognize that because you cannot control your birthright, you should be able to elevate your status with intellect and hard work.

Two of the reasons for our current situation are lack of quality education and job outsourcing. I read an article by Jeffrey Sachs in TIME the other day. He points out how these two are connected, "The Republicans fail to understand that businesses are investing abroad not because of taxes, but because higher wages in the U.S. are not sufficiently matched by higher skills, as they are in, say Germany or Sweden. We are, to put it bluntly, simply uncompetitive in many industrial sectors. The truth is that it will take more spending - not in the form of haphazard stimulus but in smart long-term public investments in education, infrastructure and human capital - to get us out of our present mess."

But corporations are not letting change occur because the status quo does not negatively impact them. CEOs are taking home even more money than before. They can afford quality education for their own children, so why invest (via taxes/government spending) on the education of others. In theory, it would benefit them to live in a more educated society, and it would benefit their companies to be able to hire educated Americans. But why bother if they can do the same thing by paying lower wages in another country?

So this brings us to another plight of the OWS movement - the fact that the richest 1% are the ones who control politics. They pay for the campaigns, which means that the votes in congress cater to their desires. The rest of us don't matter - and we end up having to vote between almost equally bad options. Our votes could make a difference if there were ever a choice who DIDN'T just listen to the richest of their constituents. But we don't get that option. Obama was the closest we've had, with his rejection of donations from lobbyists, but that's not 100% true. Some believe that the top 1% deserve what they have - they deserve low taxes - because they earned their money and do not rely as much on the government. If they are not taking advantage of government spending, then why should they contribute to it? But did they all really earn it on their own? How many were born into it and thus side-stepped into their positions? How many "earned" it, but through the benefit of a system that allowed them to prosper? A system that is broken now. Elizabeth Warren recently addressed this issue and got slammed for her comments, but I think she addressed the issue of upward mobility and how, without government programming, that possibility is gone.

With the government pampering big corporations and the rich, the idea is that their money will trickle down in the form of job creation, but that just isn't happening because of outsourcing. And we can't solve the problem of outsourcing unless we have a more educated and skilled work force to justify higher wages. And to do that, we need government to step in and do something because the corporations won't.

Now, having all these rambling thoughts in my head (did they read as disorganized and haphazard? cause they were...) made me realize why the OWS movement comes across as so unfocused. There are so many things wrong, how can it be organized? And for a while, I kept wondering how a protest was really going to make a difference. But here's how - it simply raises awareness. It starts the conversations. I still believe that the wrenches thrown about debt forgiveness actually hurt the cause, but it still gets us talking. In fact, it wasn't until someone on Facebook started bashing the movement (because of the debt comments) that I realized how much I DID agree with it (which I realized because of my defensive reaction to the criticism). I wish it were more focused, but perhaps it is simply the motivator to start the conversation.

I know one positive outcome is the push to move money out of big banks and into smaller local banks and credit unions. The movement coincided nicely with Bank of America's announcement to charge for debit card use, and it coincided nicely with a letter from my own bank stating that they will give me a "choice" (you know, positive spin to make it seem like I have options) between keeping a balance of $6,000 in my accounts or pay $15/month in fees. I realize that if I do not have a higher balance, they cannot lend the money out and earn interest, but charging me for being poor doesn't really seem like a very good practice. And so I will be moving my money. Sure, they would do better if they had more of my money, but the result of their practice is that they will have even less. This can be capitalism at work - with the general public "voting" with our business. At least in banking, I have another option. With other types of goods and services, we don't have good options. And that's when capitalism fails. When 100% of the options are only looking out for themselves, shipping jobs overseas, and not investing in our society's future, how can we use our business to regulate the practice? We can't. This is why we need government regulation. But even the government's not ours... So we do what we can. And for the rest, we protest. Cause our voice feels like all the power we have.

28 September 2011

Fox

I don't watch a lot of TV, but every so often I find myself with random blocks of time to fill. In those times, I watch things on Hulu. So a couple of weeks ago, Fox allowed Hulu to play the pilot of the new Zooey Deschanel show, New Girl, before it even aired on TV. I watched it. I felt "eh" about it, but I sort of like her, so I thought I'd give it one more shot. So tonight I thought, "oh, I'll check out the next episode of that show that I saw 2 weeks ago."

Well, turns out that Fox, despite letting the internet see the pilot episode before it even aired, is now doing this thing where you can't watch something online for 8 DAYS after it airs. Unless you sign in with a Dish account. I get that they're trying to make money, but 8 days? The next episode is going to air before I can watch this one. So...let's say I wasn't doing anything on Tuesday night, when the show regularly airs. I MIGHT watch it when it's on TV, but since I missed this week and they won't let me catch up online, I doubt I'm going to bother... Why not wait 6 days, that way it's still an annoying delay encouraging people to spend money, but allows people to catch up in time to watch the next show when it actually airs. Hell, you could throw in an ad for the real show, saying "hey, if you watch this tomorrow night on TV, you won't have to wait a week!"

Anyway, I'm now complaining about TV, which is a little absurd given the fact that I watch so little of it I don't even have cable. I use an antenna...

(Side note regarding TV: When Mad Men returns in 2012, I will be going to the gym to run/walk on the treadmill with the TV tuned to AMC in order to watch it. I contemplated returning to cable, but paying for one show seemed a little excessive. And this way I have motivation to work-out. Win-win!)

01 September 2011

Also

To the Oregon Psychological Association: You clearly know that I no longer live in Oregon. My current state of residence is printed on the address label in your mailing to me. WHY DO YOU KEEP MAILING ME STUFF?!

Milestones

I sort of live my life as a set of milestones. I know, I know. I should "revel in the moment" and in the "journey" instead of always waiting for the next achievement, but well, I sort of LIKE working toward milestones. I DO enjoy the in-between times, but I view it as the enjoyment of the process toward the next step. Maybe that's why I entered a career where my life will continually be another paper or grant application to submit. I enjoy working toward something tangible.

Because then I get days like today. Days when I:
  • Send off a big packet of papers to Germany. The culmination of a couple months of emailing, writing, collaborating, editing, and finally printing an application for a fellowship in Berlin.
  • Email a job application to 2 different universities for faculty positions.
  • Email a grant application to the UCLA grants office (this one is a little less climatic since the grants office is notorious for being a pain in the ass with regard to getting everything off to the potential funding agency) - but still the culmination of many many months of writing and editing.
  • Email edits of 4 essays for a friend's internship applications. This one didn't take too long, but it was fun and nice to send back to her so that SHE can get to her next milestone of submitting those apps!
I just feel really good about checking things off the "to-do" list, you know?

It also doesn't hurt that I'm going to Oregon this weekend for a wedding and short backpacking trip and to see some good friends. And that the following weekend I get a visit from another good and long-lost friend and celebrate my birthday. Life is pretty good right now...